the beautiful spirits speak

I was listening to a program on NPR rambling in my work commute yesterday morning that still echos with truth - We straddle a world laden in black versus white, narratives that strive to arrive at an answer, not a gray area. This is not our truth, however. I don’t generally see negative or positive, for instance. I see perspectives and how we “energetically load meaning” into our narratives. These are narratives that we own, quite intimate, but also, in making sense of the world around us, we strive to cement meaning into other people’s narratives. I awoke roughly at 2:30 AM today and at first had the less favorable, however, more quotidian view that I was in a bout of insomnia. Not true. The best time to sleep in the Ayurvedic Time Cycles is 10pm-2am. The best time to rise and shine is in the midst of the peaceful ether that surrounds our worlds, anywhere from 2am-6am. So see, in one perspective it’s quickly inferred that there is something wrong with me; the other? I am aligned with the Universe. This is what I believe this morning, and when you are aligned with the very mechanics behind this great foundation of life, all else falls into place more easily.

Recently I have been processing the state of industry, economies, and energetic blue prints inside of us guiding our work in business. I’ve always relied on the latter intuitively to aim my compass with the most compassion, ethics, success, and love in all of my careers since my 20s. Without such, you might as well be a Pez Dispenser. My work will forever be this equation, or I move on. It’s vital to live a life of meaning; not simply function. Annually I assess how all areas of my work puzzle affect me. It’s like taking the art of decluttering to the energetic corners of my business model - that room doesn’t make me feel good and it feels dull. So I remove that variable, clean it up, and evolve it into the newer version that creates ease. Just like my work on humans. It transcends to the admin (marketing, numbers, scheduling …) of running a business. Of course I am oversimplifying this process and leaving out the mere fact that my personal energy field and all that is contained, intertwines and overlaps all areas of me, impacting the health of my work as well. It’s all of our jobs and our gift to hit pause occasionally, read the tea leaves, and pivot all areas of our lives. It’s a liberating process to know you can shape your life so easily like clay, when there is pace and intention behind the wheel. That’s the challenging part.

I’ve been answering your questions on how has business evolved since 2020. Let me take a step back to explain my perspective on this. I never want to run a business with my sympathetic nervous system in command. That translates as all decisions, quality of work, future vision are all based on fast reactions inherent to fight or flight survival. This in turn is not an organic sustainable future pathway if it doesn’t resonate with my heart perspective. I will burn out, or the machine will. And I don’t believe in wasting breaths. I always strive to build business based on a more intentional vision of opportunity, community, balance, ease. I believe a lot of marketing tactics are wrong for my industry because they prey on applying reactive-based incentives, thus the hamster wheel keeps churning sympathetic nervous system energy that further fuels the energy field and its quantum projections. It’s been a delicate balance being human and balancing these two sides of the equation out over the past few years, but I think we’re approaching something even more beautiful than we have as a community before. But I’ve had to compartmentalize work versus personal more and more, in order to push through this evolution of balancing out, so, I did not sacrifice the religion of my passion underlying the very work we cherish. It’s creates a fuller work load when you work this way, because our very nature as humans and energy fields is to constantly connect and not quarantine parts of us from the collective tree. In the end it’s not a long term growth tactic, and thankfully I know that and it got the push it needed overnight to shift.

Part of this evolution of shift many of us and our businesses are going through must experience a “crack” to let the light in; a loss of what was in our path to open up space to recreate what our pivot wants now versus then. The very basic tenets of creation, are that sometimes you must clear the slate to have room for more. Energetically the Universe commands that fast, decisive change often must seem to “detroy” something in our paths, in order for the clearing to offer space for the creation of an elevated path, an elevated experience. I believe the old Austin and the more recent, Austin are entangled in a myriad versions of this evolution as we speak. But it trickles down from communities to the individuals and impacts back and forth. It’s beautiful really. It’s poetry of many narratives coming into fruition. I have for the most part stayed true and hit pause to re-evaluate over the recent years multiple times. A clearing came into view months ago and I have been shifting with it, waiting for its horizon to peak. Here we are.

Overnight I experienced a monumental shifting thanks to a personal clearing that manifested yesterday when I finally committed the courage of calling my parents to check in. Stick with me. The importance here is not that you understand this type of exchange personally. It’s the interplay of nervous systems and energy fields and this is my example. By the way, I hope this moment does not resonate with your personal experiences. That is good. If you do not understand why detailed content is not important here at triggering a fight or flight nervous system response, that is also very good. It means your nervous system did not have to learn to protect you from dangerous people like this. Again, stick with me, in short, every exchange involves my father directing rage to intimidate and control me for no reason, yet it’s a learned and very active present danger to my nervous system and it triggers my fight or flight response. And if my sympathetic nervous system has already been hovering on high for several years due to the world’s shifting and challenges? Well, it can also just calibrate it on chronic high in all areas of my life. This is why I balance these timely, family interactions. However, this action and what followed, offered a timely release versus a need to clear for the remainder of the night. The exchange initially left my heart racing for hours - think tiger chasing me, fight or flight. And then? It took a hard turn, reset and over calibrated, dialing down much lower than it has in years. It took under thirteen minutes on the phone as I commuted home on the back roads to 290. It felt empowering to witness my voice come alive. Nothing special was said. It was just another moment in my life that offered me a moment to train my voice to let go at the cords and speak, and it did with great discipline. There was even a pause that seemed to echo for several seconds. There were times in my life when I have been threatened and tried to scream, yet I only could grow more silent. Nothing would come out no matter how hard I tried. And often, we are trained as therapists, that we must anchor the treatment room without reaction despite what comes at us. All of these suppressed experiences of stuffing it down, muting ones voice (and nervous system), while working through challenging life obstacles, it all quite frankly hit a head a few years back. I had been falling more and more into the fight or flight business model. Why is all of this relevant? If I can find my voice to a parent that has bullied me decades through narcissistic rage, I’ve already slayed a dragon. When my nervous system had this engaged reminder in the present, and power emanate from my throat into sounds (the content didn’t even matter), the Universe released me once again from this place of functioning in trauma. It reset the trauma and separated me from the proverbial tiger. This released the nervous system lens from all parts of my life.

Taking on the role as a Health Specialist is something I embrace and am passionate about giving back. I’m looking forward to this new chapter, with an overflowing cornucopia of sensory experiences and so much light.